I have held in my feelings my whole life. I’m great at hiding them. If you looked at me you would think I’m the happiest person alive. But if you could read my mind and hear my thoughts, you’d know that I’m not that happy with my life. I have a great life. I really do. I have an amazing family and amazing best friends. All of them are always there for me. But I don’t really use them. I don’t talk about what I’m feeling. I just bottle it up inside and then when I can’t take anymore I explode. It’s not good for me.
My best friend, Jason has really got me to talk lately. If you ask him, he’d probably say that I didn’t talk a lot, but he knows it was a lot considering I literally NEVER talk about my feelings. He’s a great guy. Any girl would be lucky to have him as a boyfriend. Jason has seen every side of me. He’s seen me cry, which I don’t cry in front of people. He’s seen me happy, excited, heartbroken, etc. He hasn’t seen me grumpy though. I always tease him that I’m just going to be grumpy to him one day so he can see what it’s like. He didn’t like that idea. :) I talked to him a little bit though and I cried and he was just there for me. He gave me advice and I’m taking it to heart. I will start talking about my feelings more. So I will probably just be rambling on here. If you don’t like it, then don’t read it. Please no rude comments or anything like that. I’m trying to be truly happy with myself. If you have any advice for me, feel free to leave it. I’m always up for new advice and hearing it from new people. Maybe I can make a difference with this. If I don’t, that’s okay too. :)